Friday, November 03, 2006
This comes to you at a time where I don't really care for very many things. Some people say that you can motivate yourself every morning by waking up and telling yourself that it is going to be an exciting day. I would like to meet those people so I can gauge out their eyeballs. Labels: musings
Suddenly, my only motivation for waking up in the mornings is knowing that I can go back to bed at night and in the process, tear off another page on my daily calender. I have lost the motivation for many things. When I was 8, I had a pyramid version of a Rubic Cube and I spent weeks motivating myself to find the solution to that puzzle. One day, one ordinary day, I picked it up and saw the solution staring straight back and me. And after that, it just got plain boring.
In many ways, I get through the day trying to solve puzzles (sometimes literally - Freecell in the office can be fun but ssssh, don't tell the boss). And if you do solve the puzzle, it isn't quite as fun as it used to be. Most people hate being in a situation where they don't know what is going on. I prefer being tossed in the deep end of the pool where I have to kick around to stay afloat. I don;t quite know why, but that is how shit spins.
This again would not bother you. You read this and will then go about reading something else about some Singaporean MP's daughter. If I am lucky, you might spare a thought about this before deciding on KFC's 3 piece hot & spicy chicken for lunch. I don't expect much anymore.
You can say that you have no idea what I am babbling about - well that makes BOTH of us. And you know, I seem to have lost the motivation to humour you.
Go yam seng lah dey, what lah you.